Poem: I don’t quite understand
When I see you again
You tell me about her
Well you don’t tell me, specifically
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Because you see, we don’t talk unless there’s a group
And I want to really get to know you
But she has already taken the spot I could have had
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When I come home after hanging out with our group
Of friends that I love, including you
I don’t love you like I love them
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See, I come home and look in the mirror in silence
Thinking does she look like me
Did you choose the easy option?
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Was I too hard to get
Or do you really like her?
Because I would never replace you
With someone else
So I don’t quite understand
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I’ll hold on to the belief
You were just too scared
You did like me
You just wish I was more aware
But I know my belief is not the truth
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I wonder when you text me goodnight
But then again, you text the entire group goodnight
But still
I wonder
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See, the thoughts in my head go right and go left
Did you spend hours thinking about what you said
Because I did and I hate myself for it
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And I hate myself for liking you
But I love myself for loving you
Because you deserve to be loved the way I love you
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See, I just hope you are as hurt as I am when you come home
Wondering if you should’ve worn better cologne
Wondering if you said the right things, made the right actions
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But I am pretty sure you’re home now with her
Because your home are not four walls plus two windows
It is two gorgeous eyes on your pillow
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See, I really know you
I have memorized your laugh when you’re not happy
And I could re-act the way you smile when you are
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I know you are not happy always
But does she?
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See, I’ve tried to distract myself with others
But I can’t help but wonder when I look into the mirror
Wondering if this empty mess
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Will ever be as good as her
Or will ever be good enough to you
– maybe it is my self-esteem that scares you off
When I wrote this poem, I felt so much. I always feel so much, to be honest. Drama queen, huh? Hahah. I hope you like this poem and if you do, like this poem and you’ll make me a very happy person:).
You’ve ever fallen in love with someone who did not or you do not know if they did? Let me know how it worked out!
& if you have any suggestions, please feel free to tell me. The same goes for having a question!
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