Harmless Crush

I thought
I would marry a man who loved me
But who I didn’t love
I would die in someone’s arms
But knowing I wanted to die in yours
I would daydream and night sleep
Feeling my heart pounding only for you
I would tell my children ‘your father and I were meant to be’
But crying afterwards because who could honestly
Believe that lie?
I thought
My eyes would burn and turn blind
If I’d ever see you with your new lover
My hands would write endless rhymes
About how you could never uncover
My mouth could never kiss someone else
Without feeling your lips instead of theirs
And you would paint your life in all the colors
But leave me in the blue
I thought
I would never surrender from this harmless crush
That turned into a torturous love
I would die if I didn’t own
The one thing my heart craved for
I would live
Only if you lived with me
I thought.
I thought.
But now I’m looking back and realize
What I thought and what was the truth
Are two things which cannot be mixed up
Because one thing I stopped feeling for you
Is love
And I’m proud of myself for it
-NB
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Have a good day & don’t forget you are your priority and not someone else. You are worth it and you deserve to be happy.
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